My body brought daily torture. Each day was a series of adult diapers that chafed, applying creams, lotions and potions to offset the itching, annoyance and never-ending pain. Swelling of the ankles, no tastebuds and the loss of self autonomy led to a life less enjoyable.
Dignity had long departed, along with my nurse of seventeen years, Esmeralda. She used the excuse that she was moving south to help her youngest bring up her latest grandchild. She had many others, so I didn’t understand why this one was so special. As she left, I reminded the Puerto Rican witch that she wasn’t getting any of my Meyer fortune.
My Vincent died many years ago. He was taken suddenly by night terrors, overdosing on medication I had never seen before. He locked the bathroom door and died a silent death in an empty bath with his pale silk boxers on. I had to endure mortification for years, as pointed fingers and whispered chats were conducted in tearooms at my expense.