Mama

Mama used that word all the time. Hearing it was just a regular part of growing up.

So I used it in Mrs. Moore’s class. Not on purpose; it just came out, you see, when I got frustrated with this kid.

As you can imagine, I ended up in the principal’s office.

“That kind of language is unacceptable, young lady,” Principal Maynard said, tapping his desk with his favorite blue pen, the one with Carver Middle School printed in white lettering on the side.

“I’ve phoned your mother,” he said, and was about to say more, but there was yelling coming from the receptionist’s desk, then Mama burst through the door.

Three Hundred and Sixty-Five

“It’s an aggressive form,” Dr. Monroe said. His eyes didn’t waver; he was used to giving bad news.

“You’ve got about a year.” This time he spoke with a little more empathy, not nearly enough to soften the blow.

“So, you’re telling me I’m dying,” I said.

“I’m afraid so,” he said, scribbling something on my chart.

The Bad Man and the Fixer

Eldrich Ainsworth wasn’t who he appeared to be. I was as sure of that as I was my name, which is Julie Koblowski, by the way.

He lived next door to me and my mother. Every morning I watched as he left his house at 7:30 am dressed in a black suit and dark sunglasses. He walked down to the bus stop on the corner of Clover and Pine, where he’d get on the number 5 bus. Then he’d return each evening at precisely 6 pm.

“I don’t trust him,” Mom said.

Which was a riot, because she had terrible judgment in men. From my father to the man who now lived in our house.

Shattered

The white cup was sitting on the table, a leftover dish from breakfast. It was the one with the black and yellow logo from a company where she used to work.

Who was drinking from it, me or him, she thought, but couldn’t remember. It didn’t matter now anyway.

The fight had been one of those lingering ones. You know, the kind that contained residue from previous fights, things said long ago that were never truly dealt with. All of it contributed to the explosion that eventually happened.

Irregular

There’s a little town between here and there. Don’t worry, you don’t need to know where it is; in fact I’m doing you a favor by not telling you where it is. Let’s just say, it’s the kind of town you speed by on your way to somewhere else.

This may seem like an odd thing but our story begins with a sock; yes, a sock. Just your typical cotton/spandex blend, like that one, lying over there on Danvers Road.

It was part of a pack of Hanes athletic tube socks, only $5.50 in the sale bin at the Walmart. Margery Morgan purchased them for her husband, Harry, a 50-year-old two pack a day smoker, and a rather despicable human being.

Purple

My friend Dylan died today. It wasn’t a quick death; he’d been dying for years. Drugs had taken over his life, and no matter how many times he got clean, the demon always won him back.

In Perpetuity

Anna Emery’s pregnancy was quite unexpected; not in the Virgin Mary immaculate conception kind of way, but a surprise nonetheless.

She and Mason had been very careful, always making sure they were using protection. But as Anna’s grandmother was often quoted as saying, “If you do the deed, there’s a chance he might plant his seed.”

And three months after their first date, Anna was pregnant. A month later, they were married. Not long after that, they were on the verge of a divorce.

Peccadillos

It all started with a simple glass of water.

Conrad Jacobs woke to see the glass defiantly sitting on his antique dresser. The same glass he asked his wife to move several times. The very same glass that left a water mark so complete, the wood beneath was worn and pale.

“Aubrey!” he called, but she didn’t answer. She rarely answered him these days.

Bleak Friday

If you had asked me just a few short weeks before, I would’ve said you were crazy. Yet there I was, standing in line alongside other frenzied shoppers, looking for the deal of a lifetime on Black Friday.

When I told my best friend Tabitha that I was thinking about doing this crazy thing, she screamed. Then the scream turned into a shriek, which morphed into a squeal that just kept getting higher and higher until I couldn’t make out any actual words. My dog Max growled, and gave her the same look he gives the neighbor’s cat every time it runs through our yard.

“Let’s go, Amy,” she said. “Tons of people do it every year, why not us?”

Rose

The group stood in a small hallway that led to an old padlocked storage room. Laura, age eight, asked, “What’s this?”

“Was once the second bedroom,” Dudley said. “But now it’s just fer storage.”

“Can we see inside?” Laura asked.

“No can do, little lady. Employees only.”

If someone was looking at Dudley closely, they would’ve seen him shiver slightly. Just being near the room gave him the chills, and he did his best to never go inside. But if you asked him after his shift, and plied him with a few glasses of his favorite scotch, he just might tell you the real reason why that room was padlocked.

“It wadn’t the fog that caused the lighthouse to close,” he’d say, enjoying the smoothness of the scotch as it went down. “The real reason it closed is inside that old storage room.”

The Burden’s Weight

The sign on the marquee at the Loma Theater read, “The Fog, starring Adrienne Barbeau.” My best friend Becky and I thought it would be the perfect movie to see on Halloween since our parents told us that at fourteen, we were too old for trick-or-treating.

After what happened at that movie, I wish I’d just stayed home with Mom and handed out candy to the kids in the neighborhood. But you know what they say about hindsight.

The Scarlet Letter: Re-Imagined

The body had been cleaned and was covered with a simple white sheet. Detective Hester Prynne, fresh off an internal review, was called to the scene at Franklin Park. Her partner Richard Bellingham was already there.

“So, how’d it go?” Bellingham asked.

“Just as I thought,” Hester said. “Dimmesdale lied through his teeth, said that he tried breaking off the affair, but I threatened to expose him. And with Dimmesdale’s connections, there was no way they would believe me over him.”

“Hmmm …” was all Bellingham said.

“Oh, don’t give me that I-told-you-so voice. I know it was dumb to get involved with him, but —”

“But I was so in love,” Bellingham teased with a cheeky smile and a forced falsetto.

Charm and Insecurity

I haven’t had champagne since that night. Seems like yesterday. I was at Eli’s New Year’s Eve bash, and just before midnight he pulled out an $11,000 dollar bottle of Veuve Clicquot. I nearly orgasmed when I took that first sip. I shouldn’t say this, but the rest of the night was an orgiastic blur.

What? Oh, that was at least fifteen years ago. It was also the night he gave me a ring — it was beautiful. “Keep it,” he said. “One day I’m going to ask you to marry me.”

To think I was dumb enough to believe him.

Life Lines

My life has been reduced to a few lines on a piece of paper. My memories are fading fast, and I know that if I don’t write them down they will be gone forever.

My name is Martha Geller. But I think at one time my surname was Jensen, so maybe I was married — maybe I’m currently married. I just don’t know anymore. To hold on to some sense of myself, every few minutes I say my name over and over so I don’t forget it.

My name is Martha Geller, my name is Martha Geller, and I’m scared.

Conference Room Number 3

The shot rang out in the small conference room, and the bullet that exited the gun’s chamber unfortunately found its way to me … well, to my head, to be exact.

The effing moron with the gun was, first off, a poor shot, and second, some asshole who couldn’t handle the fact that his wife was insisting on becoming his ex-wife.

My body lay slumped over the seat in front of me, some of the contents of my skull splayed all over the pretty spring dress of the woman who sat there, the actual target of the gunman’s rage.

The Collection Agency

I was five minutes late, only five minutes, but the Mentor can be quite unforgiving, as well as merciless. I tried to explain that there were some unforeseen circumstances, but he didn’t want to hear excuses — he never did. I knew the Mentor was demanding when the job was given to me … well, thrust upon me really, I never would have chosen it for myself. I was told the life I had before was gone, but it was hard to let go, and the Mentor thought that made me weak. I didn’t care, though. I wanted to remember the happiness, and the smiling faces of people I loved, but had to leave. That’s why I was late; I went back to observe them, and he knew it.

Sometimes I could see flashes of that old life; bits and pieces of faces, remnants of times that seemed more like dreams than real experiences. The Mentor told me that “my feelings cannot interfere in the job we are tasked to do.”

The Right Hand Man

The Devil doesn’t wear Prada. He actually prefers Dolce & Gabbana.

Satan, The Prince of Darkness, Beelzebub, or whatever you want to call him, was sitting in the Tasty Brew Café, sipping a latte and keeping a close eye on one Emerson Fyvush.

Emerson was a curious fellow, tall but hunched over, as if ashamed of his six-foot-five-inch frame. A thick unruly mane of yellowish hair sat atop his head, he had a pasty complexion, and his skin was always covered in a thin sheen of sweat. This whole pale, death look had a tendency to scare small children and adults alike.

Emerson was sitting in the food court at Carrington Mall, back by Wang’s Chinese and American Food. It was a great place to observe people without also being observed. He was watching Judy Hightower, manager of the Chic Boutique, a clothing store for the full-figured gal. Emerson had been tracking her movements for weeks. He had to. I mean, how else could he plot her demise?

The Last Ride

Johnny Mitchum was going about 70 down Route 40 in his dad’s 1968 Dodge Dart GTS. Twins Hank and Frank Needham were in back, and best friend Clay Albright rode shotgun.

Aggie’s Diner was their destination, a last night of fun before the twins left to work in Texas and Clay headed to San Diego for basic training.

They’d been friends since kindergarten, but now at age 22, the “Four Screw-ups,” as Johnny’s father called them, were well past the age when people smiled and saw their misadventures as harmless teen pranks.

It seemed they were also beginning to realize that those days of doing a whole lot of nothing were nearing their end, and Johnny suggested, “Let’s ride to Aggie’s, sit in those old greasy booths, and have one last hamburger before we say adios.”

Henry and Vincent

I often watch him from my hiding place. He always wears a long aviator’s scarf that flows out behind him when he walks, and one of those old leather bomber jackets.

Maybe he was a pilot in his old life — back before the Order.

He wanders late at night when the streets are empty and quiet. That time of night when you can pretend you don’t live in a society run by a group of brutal monsters.

The Order of the Void is in power now. Traditional governments were disbanded after the Order won the War of Annihilation. Chaos followed, and most of the population fled to the outer regions known as the Unknown Territories. The rest of us are captives within these borders, and at the mercy of madmen.

People laughed at Daddy when he told them the dangers of the Order. I wonder what they think now.

Fire and Rain

We were sitting on the sand at Mission Beach, Greg’s favorite place in the world, particularly now, during the off-season when it wasn’t bombarded by tourists who flocked to town during the summer months.

I convinced him to go with me to the little amusement park next to the Beach, like we used to, and Greg looked more like himself as we risked our lives on the rickety roller coaster, then ate those weird tacos and a couple of orders of fries at the Jack-in-the-Box across the street. For a few moments, I imagined us back in school — what I wouldn’t give to have those days back.

“Ready to go now?” I asked him.

Greg shook his head. He was particularly non-verbal today.

“Alright,” I said. I understood why he wasn’t ready to face it yet; I wasn’t either.

Happy Effing New Year

It was New Year’s Eve and I decided to spend it at home, alone.

Now don’t go feeling sorry for me; this was how I wanted it. I couldn’t attend one more party, couldn’t do one more countdown with a room full of drunken and desperate people who thought the calendar turning from one page to the next meant they got a do-over — a new year to be their best selves. I had enough of that. So I bought some junk food, ordered a pizza, and sat down in front of the boob tube. I was going to ring in this New Year with my best bud, Netflix.

And it was grand. At least for a few hours. However, around 10:30, I heard a loud blast from outside, and a few moments later, the lights went out.

Happy fuckin’ New Year to me, I thought.

Give the Devil His Due

I met the devil when I was ten. His name was Dobbs, and he was my uncle.

Mama and I moved in with my grandfather after daddy went “away,” which I found out later meant daddy was in prison. Dobbs lived there too, ever since he got out of the army. “Dishonorably discharged,” Old Man Tillman said when he didn’t know I was around.

Mama hadn’t spoken to her father in years, mainly because he didn’t approve of my daddy. And when Grandpa opened the door and saw me and mama standing there with our suitcases in hand, he said, “I told you that man wasn’t no good.”

“Please, daddy, not in front of Moses,” Mama pleaded.

The devil stood just behind grandpa, lurking, waiting. He pushed past the old man, hugged his sister, then set his sights on me. “Hi, Moses.” He smiled. “It’s nice to finally meet you.”

My Olive

A man much wiser than myself once said, “Happiness is a caustic condition that compels us to look for things outside ourselves in order to achieve and maintain it.”

My Olive looked for it in a friendship that had passed her by, one she was having a hard time letting go of.

“It’s like a part of me is gone too, mom,” she said. Olive was only fifteen, and the realization that life had plenty of rough edges was just beginning to take hold.

I could see in her the woman she could become, one on the cusp of learning that sometimes life can feed you a shit sandwich, and it’s your duty to swallow it down as best as you can, because believe it or not, there’s a good lesson to be learned.

Better Than Therapy

His name is Ted — no, his name was Ted. Well, I guess it’s still his name, he just won’t be using it anymore, that’s all. And he won’t be using it anymore because he’s dead. And Ted is dead because I killed him.

Now it’s not what you think, it wasn’t like a murder-murder, Ted wasn’t innocent, you know. I had a very good reason for killing him — and yes, that’s what every killer says, but in my case, it’s actually true.

In my defense, I did spend the better part of a year trying to forget him, trying to ignore the voice in my head who talked about killing him, and told me how I could do it.

Then there he was at Jonny O’s, laughing it up, while my life had fucking cratered into a pit of depression and guilt. I watched him and my anger grew. Then the battle inside my head began again.

Invisible

Donovan Hudson waved Michael into his spacious office. “What is it, Michael?” he asked impatiently.

“Sir, could you check the seating arrangements and menu for tonight’s dinner and see if they meet with your approval?”

Donovan nodded, then preceded to make Michael wait half an hour before taking the list and giving it only a cursory glance before signing off on it.

Then Donovan dismissed Michael in that impertinent way of his: by simply ignoring him. Never saying, Thank you, Michael, or That is all, Michael, he would just go back to the work lying on his desk, saying without saying, Get out, Michael. We’re done.

The Rise Part 2: The Outlier

Before shapeshifters began descending upon the town of Langford, before Barnabas Warleggan took what he believed to be his rightful place as leader of the shapeshifters, and before the new war began, Ruby Atwater survived.

This was important because Ruby was the first chink in the shapeshifters’ armor, a weakness most of them hadn’t even realized existed.

But Barnabas Warleggan knew, and in the back of his mind, the Old Crow was very worried.

The Rise

It was The Owl’s turn to lead the meeting, which meant he’d end the night doing that creepy thing all owls do: turning his head in a complete 360, and loving how it upset The Crow, who believed it was a showy affectation their ancestors would not approve of.

“Must you?” The Crow asked.

“It’s what we owls do,” the old bird said with a sly smile.

Then The Owl finished with the usual mantra, “Principium et Finis. The beginning of the end.” Followed by The Crow’s echoing response, which he made sure was louder and more enthusiastic than that of The Owl’s.

And with that, the meeting had officially come to an end.

The Two Mrs. Minskys

There have been two defining days in my life: the day I married Teddy Minsky, and the day Teddy died. On both days a dark, ominous cloud loomed overhead—that cloud came in the form of his mother, Ida.

Ida Minsky was a bulldozer, in attitude and appearance. A short stout woman with square shoulders like a linebacker, but she was much nastier. On our wedding day, the storm cloud bullied the caterers into changing the menu, the band into playing the songs she liked, and Teddy into realizing that no matter who he married, she was still in charge.

She was so skillful in fact that she relegated her husband, Pauley, to near invisibility in her presence, and he finally just vanished altogether, choosing death over life with Ida.

But Pauley’s liberation meant my captivity because after he died, Teddy brought Ida Minsky to live with us.

Hello. This is Siri

“Go east six miles,” she said, “then turn left.” I woke up with a start and stared around the dark room.

“Who said that?” I asked, immediately feeling like the first idiot to die in some bad horror movie.

The directions repeated, and I realized it was the robotic voice of the GPS woman from my phone. The problem was I wasn’t driving, I was sleeping. The even bigger problem? My phone wasn’t on. I had it in sleep mode, so I couldn’t even receive a call, let alone get directions I didn’t ask for.

I’d been struggling with insomnia for weeks, and I had finally fallen asleep for a few hours, then some weird glitch in my phone woke me up. I wanted to cry.

The voice said again, “Go east six miles, then turn left.”

Photomic

“How much is this?”

The guy behind the counter came to life. He had been sitting on a stool, feet up, ear buds inserted firmly into the ear canal, promptly ignoring anyone who walked through the door of Ed’s Pawn Shop. But then I asked about the camera, his eyes lit up, and he was all excited and attentive like someone who gave a shit about his job.

“This is the 1972 Nikon F2 Photomic.”

He said this like it was supposed to mean something to me, and he waited for me to respond accordingly.

When I didn’t he said, “Did you hear me? It’s a Nikon F2—”

“Yeah, I heard you, it’s an F2 Photobomb, but you still haven’t told me the price.”